I know what you are thinking. Kristina has lost it. She has turned to drugs and we need to call someone for her. You don’t.
I did not take NZT but Ritalin. I didn’t go score it on some corner in a sketchy neighborhood, but rather in my own home. Who knew that source of my sanity of mind would come from my own house…and my own mother.
My mom has a serious case of ADHD and yesterday when I had a serious French assignment I asked her if I could take one.
I’m going to pause for a minute because I know this sounds crazy. But if you know me well, you should know that I am a woman with an insane brain and actually do have ADHD as well. For those of you who didn’t know me so well, welcome to the crazy train.
I had a French assignment to watch a film and write an essay. A feat that seems simple to most, but to me almost impossible to complete. 34 minutes in, I was a goner. I couldn’t do it; I was done, bored, tired, and ready to do anything else other than that. So I went to my mom’s room and decided we need to try this out. She saw how earnest I was in asking her and she said okay. She only gave me half and completed a full course of “mom knows best” before she handed me the pill.
I took it and continued the movie. About an hour later she comes in and asks me if I noticed a difference. Honestly, I hadn’t but then I thought well I have been grasping more detail and my god I have not checked my twitter, facebook, tumblr, yahoo or just jared in the last hour. (yes i a actually do these things in the minute it takes for a web page to load — sick, right?). BUT, I did notice a difference and it was spectacular. She was right, It was not like i went on a coke spree of cleaning and writing a trilogy of novels about astrophysics, but I was calm and focused.
I use to chalk up my lack of focus to my ability to multitask. Bullshit! My ass needed the Rit since I was kid and at 22, I got it!
And it got better. I wrote my essay in an hour, no music, no tv, no moments of pure dread. I just wrote it and I’m done. Now I am writing this and I have not even stopped yet.
So by next week, lets hope I have a prescription in hand and new bottle of calm to work out the kinks. I am already sad at the prospect of my chill wearing off but not in a fiending kind of way but because it is nice to feel normal.
That’s all folks. I hope you guys learned a little more about me and are enlightened by this news and are as happy for me as I am for me.